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Thursday, June 01, 2006

Over at Casa de Kiwi

Yes, I know, I am a really lame blogger! I don't know how many times I can play the newborn card, but man! times does fly by when you have a little baby boy in your life! Not to make excuses or anything, since some of you sneaky gals (hi Dooney!) know that I upload my French blog quite often. But with Félix, work that has been crazy (my semi-annual contract is going on now), the sun that is finaly showing itself, and writing my other blog, well... I got little time left to translate my posts in English. But! I will try very hard in the next few weeks to catch up and translate it all. I also have a Meme to do (Ally, I know you tagged me, I haven't forgotten!). And a thing I want to discuss with my fellow infertile and formerly infertile bloggers. But for now, some news about me, my kid and our new life.

Félix is doing great. He is getting so big! And by big, I mean BIG! He is now 4 months old (already?!) and he weights 20 pounds and measures 26 inches. He even has one tooth! Sometimes I think I gave birth to a 3 months old baby! But he was so tiny when he was born (7 pounds 11 ounces)... I must have real good milk! Or it must be cream! Because yes, I am still breastfeeding and it is going great. Well, except this week, because of his new tooth, my right nipple is on fire. But still, I am so proud I kept with breastfeeding. It is so easy and natural now. I love that special connection I have with my son. And I love every fold and every ounce of baby fat he has because I gave him that. I fed him with MY body, MY milk. That, to me, is pretty amazing.

Life with our boy is so much fun! He is such a good boy, always smiling. He is very calm, never cries, is never fussy. He laughed for the first time a couple of weeks ago and my heart melted. They always say it's the most beautiful sound in the world, but nothing could have prepared me for that moment. Oh the love! My heart is about to explode every morning I wake up next to him, smiling at me, putting his little hands in my face. He is not a big laugher though. He hasn't laughed a lot since the first time, so we savour every little laugh we get out of him.

We are all doing well together. We have our little routine. P went back to work at the end of March, I started working back in March too, but since I am self-employed and working from home, it's not that bad. I try not to take too many contracts, but I still have to make a living. Consealing work and being a mom wasn't easy at first, but now things are going smooth. I think the fact that he now can entertain himself a little more helps a lot. I can put him in his high chair for about an hour with toys so I can work a little. If I could choose, I would never have to work again. But since we cannot, for now, live with only one salary, I do the minimum of work required to get by.

I, for myself, am doing good too. I am now 5 pounds under my pre-pregnancy weight, which is a big accomplishment for me. I still want to lose a few more pounds. Since I am pcos, I always tried to lose weight and never could. Now that I seem able to, I will try and lose that 10% they always talk about. I'm not too far from that, so I hope it will help when we get to try for baby #2.

I know people like to know "how the story ends"... what it's like, motherhood after infertility. Too many bloggers stop writing after becoming a mother. I understand why, but I too, like to know how things go, after all the pain and the false hopes. I want to talk about being a new mom, about my son, about how much my love for him has changed how I look at life. But finding my place, my new place, isn't easy. But I swear I'll be back soon and often.

2 comment(s):

What a big boy!! He's a gorgeous little fella though!

I'm so glad to hear you are doing well and that things are going so smoothly. We should all be so lucky! :)

By Anonymous Dooneybug, at 12:34 PM  

Congrats on going below your pre-pregnancy weight! Quite an impressive accomplishment!

I know many bloggers stop writing post-pregnancy, but I hope that does not happen with you. I love getting updates, and seeing the adorable pics of Felix!

By Blogger Ornery, at 10:26 PM  

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