Eggs, shots and rock n roll

Friday, April 13, 2007

Sometimes size does matter

I'd been thinking about my appointment for days. I wasn't expecting anything, but still had a little hope things might have changed. Serophene had never worked on me, I did not see why it would be different now... but maybe...

I wish I could say I was wrong, but no. It didn't work. I had tons of small folicles, but none big enough to even dare to hope I would ovulate this month. As I told my dr, I am not surprised at all. But I am still disappointed. On top of that, he told me my lining is too thick and would make implantation too hard anyway. I had never heard that before, but whatever. I still needed an egg to have that problem.

So, I'm taking Megestrol (Megace) to induce my period and reduce my lining. A pill I've never taken before, that's exciting. Then I'll be taking 150mg of Serophene.

We're back in the trial and errors waltz. Too bad I don't feel like dancing tonight.


Wednesday, April 11, 2007

Remember me?

Last I came here, I was talking about being back in the game soon. Well, I am now back for good. I nursed my son for the last time on March 4th. Breastfeeding was hard at first, but it was always gratifying and enpowering. I am so very proud that our adventure lasted over 13 months, even though I would have liked to go on much longer, if only I would have ovulated like a normal woman does. I cried when he latched for the last time. I cried, stroking his hair, looking at his calm face and hearing him gulp down my milk for the last time. He did well. He never asked for my breasts after that, so I guess he was ready. I was too, but there are still moments when I miss breastfeeding a lot. I'm sure it will pass. I just hope really really hard I did not wean him for nothing.

So, I saw my RE on March 29. With good timing, my period started right after the appointment. Yay! So, since Femara is no longer prescribed by many doctors here, including my doctor (because of a study showing it increased some birth defects) I cannot start where I left when I got pregnant with Félix. I was disappointed, since Femara was the magic trick for me, for my two pregnancies. Anyway, since I've been having pretty short cycles since my first post-partum period, something I never had before Félix, he thinks maybe Serophene (same as Clomid) would work this time. So I started taking Metformin again and Serophene from CD3 to CD7. I am now on CD14, not ovulation yet. I am seeing my dr Friday, for a folicle scan, to see if this recipe works or not. He doesn't want me to stay on these meds if they don't work. I agree with him.

I've been feeling like crap for the last two weeks. Ah, the joys of Metformin! I remembered vaguely how I felt when I took it for the first time back in 2003, but it just isn't the same on paper than in real life. So, lots of nausea, feeling bloated and uneasy, headaches and heartburn. But hey, I'm willing to take it all if it means I'm ovulating. Especially since I clearly remember it did not last. I wouldn't have taken it for 18 months if it did! I had some hot flashes from the Serophene, but that's it. Two days ago, I felt a very sharp pain on my right side when I got up, but I won't read anything into it.

I can't wait to see if there's a folicle waiting to explode in there. I can't wait to see if my body is willing to cooperate.

Feels good to be back.